Dilemma again

Today, the "not-so-professional-boss" of potential employer ask me to go over to discuss the possible package for me to work there. I am in dilemma, coz I dont really like him during the interview for asking non-professional questions like "do you anyone who can do asset management? do you know anyone who this and that?" go and hire head hunter yourself!! i am here to be interviewed on me! if u ask me AFTER interview, then that's a whole different story. damn, i am thinking of rejecting ...altho the company is just next door.

Met our client GM in the lift - he said i should stay here.... WHAT!!!??? no way!! once i have made up my mind, i wont change it. It took me 3 years to decide, and I know where I want to go. I gotta take the risk - otherwise, who to be challenged?

Yesterday, darling asked me to join him and colleagues to play bowling at times square - damn! i scored 0 in the first few sets...and i hate myself for that. Ah, 2nd time, i should not squeeze myself too hard though.

Pervert

I walked to temple for lunch today, next to Wisma Central, Jalan Ampang.

Stupid pervert tried to attract my attention by whistling "choot choot choot" at me and he tried to stop me from walking. I didnt even wanna look at him. Stupid!

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On the other note, one of my colleagues suddenly passed away at the age of 39. She is survived by hubby and 4 kids ranging from 10months old to 10 years.

I always pitied myself for losing a mother, I am weak, I am sad....I dont have her to depend to...but i cant imagine if I am 10 months old....

:(

Dont Talk To Me Today

I am in extremely bad mood today. I dont want to talk to anyone, I dont feel like meeting up with anyone and I want to scold practically everyone that I talk to!!

Started with the stupid maybank charging me for another cheque book that I never applied and insisted I do. I asked the officer to produced proof or at least the internet transaction history but she failed to do so!! How on earth will I do that, when I still have 2 books left? Then she came out with the excuses its auto generated by system to replace the new cheque design - so pay me back for the duty stamp i have paid - i demanded - which she said she would, if i return the old ones to her. Fine, I will do that tomorrow.

Then with people potong queue when i try to change new notes, the unnecessary request from colleagues to ask for favour - etc - leave me alone!!! these buggers, cant they just use their brains when they just want easy way to copy mine? Sorry la, I have resigned - so let it be!

Ok, PMS mood or not, leave me alone - bye!

Lunch with 'twin' brother

Today, I met my "twin" brother for the 1st time, after sms-ing him for almost 4 years - Felix.

I got to know him from Nina girl, whom introduced us in 2004 - we share the same birthday, altho he is 3 years older than me. I also found out, we scored the same result for IQ test (same score!) and we both had the same cradle song - SOMETHING ONLY LOVE CAN DO by jacky cheung! OMG!!!

Hahaha!!! Denise did this for me - and i dont know how to use photoshop...so this is very messy photo...she wants to change my hairstyle to Marilyn Monroe...hahahaha...tak sesuai!!

Lorry on fire!!

This morning, for the 1st time in my life, I saw big lorry / trailer on fire in front of Sunway Pyramid heading to NPE.

When we drove passed, the driver was trying to escape. Gosh, it will explode ANYTIME!!! takutnya!!! i still cant get over it, thinking of what happen next. Hopefully no victim.

Public Holiday for KL on Thaipusam!!

HAPPY, HAPPY, HAPPY!!!!

End of the world

This morning, I had a dream - that its end of the world. Suddenly there's such a loud noise from the sky, wrapping up...then the earth started to spin and it rained so heavily. i hold on to the rock and I felt so dizzy.

Everything happened and after the earth stopped spinning, i received a call from papa i think calling from US, asking whether it happened in Malaysia and I said yes. Then I looked above the sky, it's so beautiful. I am living in the new earth.

And i was "told" by the scientist that the earth has positioned itself far from 1 timezone - meaning I am 1 hour later than my usual time.

I search in the internet today, from a few websites and found this :


Signs of the End:
•Jerusalem Destroyed
•Great Tribulation
•Great Earthquake
•The Dark Day
•Shooting Stars
•Labor Troubles
•Wars and Commotions
•Unrest and Fear
•Increase of Knowledge
•Violence and Crime
•Moral Degeneracy
•Craze for Pleasure
•Disasters and Famines
•Warning Message
•Spiritualism
•Pride and Selfishness
•Drunkenness and Gluttony
•Desecration of Marriage
•Religious Skeptics

For details, read from...
http://www.bibleprophecytruth.com/JesusChrist/signsoftheendtimes.asp

It is quite scary to think about this, coz there has been a few occasions, where my dreams came true. ie: the plane landed at highway and really happened.

How Long Can She Fight With It?

On Sat, Hoon che che called, telling us 3kor (3rd aunty - papa's 3rd sister) is in critical condition. Less than 1 year, her husband just passed away. I pitied the children - although they have grown up like me, but its not easy to cope with parents death.

Today, she is still in hospital and I am glad, but how long can she take it?

Huat (the eldest son) has prepared for "her arrival" since Sat, which I think its cruel - but sometimes when i thought about it, its not easy to die in reality.

I suddenly feel relieved that mummy didnt have to suffer until her last moment. For that, I should be thankful to God.

I cannot work in a place....

I cannot work in a place...
where people do not want to be responsible on their decision
where people will blame others for the wrong decision they have made
for they try to create unnecessary work

I cannot work in a place
that I dont have any more passion
no more life
no more challenges
no more heart to go for the better
no more energy to be proactive

I cannot work in a place
where i am always the victim
thinking i am one
or really being one

I cannot work in a place
where everything must be justified
no enpowerment

I cannot work in a place
where people thought they are the best
they have the best
but they have nothing
but trying to be bodoh sombong

I cannot work in a place
when i wake up every morning
I dont feel like going to work
I hate hearing endless remarks and complaints
yet everyone wanna take the courage to speak out
where are the balls?
show me your magic answer

I cannot work in a place
where i have gone beyond caring

I am looking forward
to leave this place
for better set of mind
for peace
for me to rest

My decision is final
and never had a place for regret
I wanna be myself
and do what I deserve
give what the company deserve
for me, I do get reward

fly soo hsia...fly!

Picture taken from :
http://www.ni-photos.jmcwd.com/white-lilies.jpg

Today

When I read Nicole's blog today, my heart sank again. When she is seeking for attention unnecessarily, I don't like her blog. Ah, I know its personal choice - I choose what I like too right?

Today, she wrote about her mum , my heart sank. Why on earth I dont have a chance to be prepared for the worst? To have my last words with mummy?

Darling told me over the weekend.... "2008 is new beginning"...Yes, but it will not change the situation no matter what. She would never return . Hopefully when I die, I can see her - and she will be there waiting for me. Selfish I am - but that's the fact. How can I find out the life after death?

I had a wonderful lunch with Sai Pan and Lydia today at Avenue K Kopitiam. Both of them will be one of the closet colleagues I will always get in touch with - just like Sim, Fei and Michael when I left Penang in Nov 2000.

I can't wait for my last day in this blardy place - but at the same time, I am so glad I am here coz I am flying without wings..... :D...counting days...

2007 - A Year to Remember

I will never forget 2007.

The most memorable is 5th July 2007 12.30pm. Mummy passed away suddenly due to "Congestive Heart Failure due to Cardiogenic Shock" - as stated in the death certificate. Layman term means, heart swollen, it swollen so big that if failed. It started with water in the lung, weak heart. So whenever I heard someone has water retention in the lung, I am scared.

31st March 2007 to (11th April 2007 ) 31st May 2007- My first trip to Europe started with Istanbul, The Netherlands, Belgium, France, then back to Belgium, Netherlands and Istanbul. Also went to Cappadocia, Turkey during the period. Off again to Hongkong from 1st to 6th June 2007.

5th Dec 2007 - I finally resigned from the company I have been working for since 3rd Dec 2000.

May 2008 give me lots of happiness, self-satisfaction, always slim figure, be beautiful and lots of love. I want papa to be happy everyday. I want to be with him. I want to be with darling... and may we able to save enough to get our own space this year.

HAppY NEw YEaR 2008!!

Happy New Year 2008 to me.

May this year bring me joy.

May this year bring happiness and good health for papa, for everyone at home.

May this year bring us in the family closer, may mummy rest in peace always.

May we be together forever and mummy beside us.

I miss you.