I want to resign!

I want to resign. I want to resign. I want to resign!!!!

I am tired of the nonsense. I am so so tired. I have been here 7 years ok!! Due to the scholarship bond. Now I am free!!!

I WANT TO RESIGN!!!!

FeELiNg FreSH AnD EnERgeTic!

YEAH!

Today I break the record of my own - waking up at 6am, and work out in the gym in the morning! Although I did not break my personal 200 calarioes record (After carrying weights), I am very satisfied with my body feeling great after workout.

I have put on 3kg since August, and Food is the CULPRIT!

Darling said I am too skinny (What??!) and therefore i just makan and makan and makan watever I like. Time to take a look at my food again.

Well, I am HAPPY, ENERGETIC and Feeling so fresh and relax. Plus now, I am listening to Um Mane Padme Hum chanting - it so soothing.......

You Might Be...a mum...

I subscribe to Chicken Soup for the Soul daily story through email.
Today, I receive this and it sounds interesting...

Quoted from :

Leslie Elizabeth Wilson (c) 2005 from Chicken Soup for the Mothers of Preschooler's Soul by Jack Canfield, Mark Victor Hansen, Maria Nickless and Elisa Morgan.

Sep 24, 2007

You Might Be a Mommy If . . .By Leslie Wilson

• Every shirt you own has spit-up on the shoulder.
• Must-see TV includes Barney, Arthur and Disney Playhouse.
• You carry a diaper bag instead of a purse.You analyze babies’ bodily functions with women you just met.

“Sleeping in” is when the clock reads 6:30 a.m.

You never go anywhere without baby wipes.

You sleep with a baby monitor a foot away from your head.

With each subsequent child, you’ve progressed from sterilizing the pacifier to washing it off to blowing on it, invoking the three-second rule.

Your children are better dressed than you.

You used to be known by your first name - now you’re Jordan’s mommy.

You store five sizes of clothes in your closet.

You call your husband on his cell phone in order to have a real conversation with him.

You go to bed at 12:30 a.m. and get up at 5:00 a.m., thankful for the extra sleep.

Excitement means Pampers are on sale.

You consider PBJs and Cheetos a nutritious meal.

You can change from lounging-sweats casual to night-on-the-town glamorous in three-and-a-half minutes.

“Doing lunch” means meeting three friends and their preschoolers at the McDonald’s Playplace.

Hearing the words, “I’m done,” from the bathroom sends chills up your spine.

You own more Disney movies than pairs of shoes.

You can pee with three children watching you - and only two are yours.

You spend more on babysitters than you do on utilities.

If you were trapped for days in your car, you could survive on the Cheerios and french fries on your floorboards.

You can tell what your daughter ate for breakfast, lunch and dinner by looking at the front of her T-shirt.

You willingly hug and kiss a kid who has sticky fingers, sweat-drenched hair and a milk mustache.

You’re overworked, overcommitted and underappreciated - and you wouldn’t trade your life for anything in the world.

WAHHHHHHHHHHH

is this for real?? i think so...Lydia...betul ke?

I dont like you means I dont like you

Yea, that's my principle - but I will forgive you.
So, don't you hurt me again ...for, i have learnt to forgive.

I dont like you. Did you hear me???
So, dont disturb us.

Spoilt my mood the whole evening.

Again, another one

Chip's mum passed away this morning at 8am+. I dunno the exact time, but .....

I knew it she wont last long - from what I hear, coz she has the same sympton with mummy. Chest with too much water and difficulty to breathe.

Oh god.

May she and mummy rest in peace, no more suffering.

I am so speechless when i heard about this news, coz I understand his feelings completely. Nothing can replace mother in one's heart.

Deteriorate

That's the word that scare me off everytime papa went for eye check-up. He has glacouma and cataracts due to diabetes. now doc said it has worsen. Oh gosch. 5% or less? I dont dare to ask. If his vision is less than 5%, how is he supposed to see when he drives at night?

I am lost on how I should do now. Deep inside, I wish I can find a job in AS and stay there with him. I know darling will understand - and he knows priority, and he knows what he always told me - "siao soon".

I am so scared. I only have him now.


Note: Chip is taking a week of as his mum is in critical condition. I support him as this is a right move. Hope she will recover.

My heart sank again

This morning I heard from Chip that his mum has difficulty breathing. I just sms-ed him and he told me she's on oxygen mask.

WHY, I dont have such chance to do that for mummy?? I am still struggling whether I should be happy that she passed away peacefully or sad.

Obviously, my tears are still so generously drop each time i think of her.
Something, only love can do.

~Namo Amitabha~

Candle To Lit Up My Spirit

This is a snap shot of a candle can. It was given to me by Sook Yee, in Dec 2003 during Xmas. It was exactly after Kenny wrote the no-ball-email to me. She told me to burn the candle when I am very very down and sad, when I feel there is no more hope and light in this world.

I gave this to mummy, on ther 49th day passing. This is the day the candle was burnt. No one can replace mummy and papa in my life. In my sisters' life. Nobody.

Dear SY, whenever I am down, I always ask myself...is this the end of the world? My answer is always No...until the day mummy passed away. Yes, the world has ended for me... and I know its time to lit up the light.

If i have to pay millions now to get to talk to mummy, I will. If God says that I have the carry her on my shoulder everywhere I go on my right, papa on my left (or the other way round) for the rest of my life, I will. I will do ANYTHING for them. Anything - as long as I am always with them.

Mummy, may you rest in peace - always.

My love for you will never change.

Pissed!

Damn pissed!! TL!!