jian jian is still in picu... 4months till now. Miss his cheeky behaviour n kisses.

:(

I have been very down for weeks...

I just wanna go back home ......................................
Miss mommy so so so much...

So Sad For Joe

Teng Zhen Joe, a five-year-old boy that I really have so much love for..... passed away yesterday. He is the son of a mom that I got to know in hospital.

My heart torned into pieces when i saw the sms from his mom yesterday. She is so strong! I called her just now for direction to joe's funeral and she said she is ok, sounded ok. Perhaps she has prepared for this, when Dr Chong told her 3 weeks ago to "give up".

I last saw Joe about 2 weeks ago and he looks so blue...

Lost of words but I want to put this down for Joe - a fighter since he was born.

Funny, until today, docs cant determine what's wrong with him - at both SJMC and PPUM.

Joe, now that u rest in peace.... you do not suffer anymore.

Love you lots. Amitabha...

11th Aug 2010 - A Perfect Day

11th Aug 2010 , I was informed by the doctors that Jian is in complete remission. Complete at the cell level!

Previously they already told me he's in remission but I want complete remission with a perfect MRD (minimal residual disease where bone marrow sample of blood is taken and check under microscope for every 10000 cells - repeatedly to confirm there is no more blasts exist in one's bone marrow done in NUS Spore)

And Prof Hany told me there is no more chromosome rearrangement detected as all blasts cant be detected = no transplant required!

This is the news I have been waiting for!!
THANK GOD!! God answer my prayers!!

A Smart Baby and his stupid mom

This morning, I was damn sleepy. Baby Jian went down the bed and took wet tissue and came back to me by pulling my hair - so hard. It was so hard that i beat his hand 3 times hardly. Jian rubbed his palm bcoz its so painful but he didnt cry.

Then I smell something - opps... pass motion.

Isnt Jian so smart?? taking wet tissue so that mummy doesnt have to walk out her bed to clean up for me? I am just one stupid mom who sleeps till late morning and beat the innocent boy.

I hate myself!

Baby JJ news in bernama last year

Happy Birthday to the love of my life

You Love Me...

I love you

We met exactly 1 year now my baby...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MOST HANDSOME BABY IN THE WORLD. I LOVE YOU!!!

You light up my life

Miracle again!

I always believe in miracle... DO YOU?

It happens again and again, miracle that I dont believe myself to something I strongly believe it will happen.

Today, I receive superb news that will change my life again in career line.I am happy! God is fair!

You see, life changes. Dont think you are the superior than the rest of us.You think you are the expert.. and without you we die.NO! YOU ARE WRONG! AGAIN, it was proven you are wrong!ACCEPT IT!!

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Today, I cant wait to go home to be with my precious.

His previous hospitalisation made me realised so many things that I can never get. Simple things like playing with you, makes me happy.

Last night when I reached home after you, your smile make me happy.I LOVE YOU BABY!

Fine, Pretender!

I hate you to the max.
I dont know what is your issue, why do you have to show your temper.
You are a pretender for sure. Look at how you talk to the bosses and how you talk to me - 2 different thing.

You may hate me, but I hate you even more.
AND I DONT CARE.

You think that you are cute? trying to be cute... it didnt work.
You think you are smart? trying to use other people to make u smart- yes you are.

I HATE YOU BABI.

My Baby

You warm my heart when I see you

whether you are smiling or crying

I love you... my precious baby

I wanna be with you all the time... you are the most precious gift!

:-*